A little bit of my heart broke today. I think it's so true everything they say about pains that twins feel. After I talked to Tarah today I felt so empty. It wasn't me doing what she had to do, I have no idea even the slightest idea how she feels or how difficult of a thing it was to do but I just bawled my eyes out for her. It makes me so sad to see her so sad and see her have to do something so hard. But I cannot even imagine how much she has learned and grown and matured from this experience. Not only because of the individual, Dan... but because of decisions she was forced to make. She really had to rely on our Savior.
How hard. I hope I am never ever in a situation like that. Ever. But if I am, I pray that I will be doing all of the right things and that I will be able to have a clear contience and be able to hear the spirit and follow it's guidance for me. Tarah is so great. I look up to her so much. I just think about how much she wanted Dan. I'll never forget coming home all of those nights after ward activities and crying with her because she wanted him so bad. That is the only thing for me that was hard to see her let him go. Of course, I want what is right for her, but it is hard to see her let such a great person go. I hope someday I can find myself a Dan Palmer, that I am sure about.
I wished I could have been there at home to hug Tarah and tell her everything is going to be okay today. But I couldn't. I sure love that Tarah. I hope she knows it, and feels it.
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